Its been a while

Its been a while since I've posted anything, I know, I'm a blogging slacker as of late, but it has been hard to find positive things to post about. Being displaced to first officer from Captain has been a tough move. Its a pretty bitter pill to swallow. I suppose I wouldnt mind so much if it was not for the abhorrently low pay. The schedual I have now is actually pretty good, but I had actually gotten used to being an abused reserve Capt. I miss Minny, miss my friends up there, miss having the ability to have Erin and the boys come visit on weekends I was working, miss the paycheck and miss the PIC turbine time. I dont miss 9 hour ready reserve sits and being jerked around by screw scheduling, but I'd take those anyday over being back in the wrong seat.
Money is not the most important thing in life, but when you dont have it, trouble cannot be too far behind. It is this driving factor that has me sending out resume's all over the world. I've been actively looking at jobs from Japan to the Middle East. Its a really tough market out there right now. Just ask any of the thousands of furloughed pilots out there trying to find work.
Making the decision to leave my freight job for this one was a gamble, right now its not paying off. In the game of Blackjack, I have been dealt a 5 with the dealer showing the King of Diamonds. Come the end of May, I'll know if the dealer is hiding an Ace and I'm royally screwed. But with any luck, I'll have found a new job by then.